sweats | [ week five ➝ chane ]

[ Heading to a few places, actually! First, the train station to see the most wanted post board for the week, and then the tailor to pick up some new clothes. He's welcome to come along.

As he falls into step beside her, Chane looks over, her expression absent a frown but not quite reciprocating his smile. Any softness or kindness on her part comes from what happens next: reaching down, she lets Winston sniff her hand - not that she needs to at this point, but it's only polite - before giving him an affectionate scratch behind the ears. There's likely an analogy to be made here but I, Jes, am sure as hell not going to write it, that shit is weird and unnecessary.

When he asks his question, she doesn't reach for her notebook right away. Fuck writing, tbh. Rather, Chane holds up both hands, and then spells out the year a single number at a time. One, nine, four, zero. 1940.

So yeah, she's an old and withered crone by Will's time. ]

Edited 2017-02-19 13:40 (UTC)

[ It's funny, really, that with Will she doesn't need to give expressions for him to pick up on what she feels, how she is interacting with the space that day. Will looks and sees enough for him to come away with something -- enough to tell him his presence is welcomed and wanted. He feels happy with that.

His eyebrows raise at the answer and he can't say he's surprised. There was something -- off, maybe, about Chane. The way she carried herself, it said something different, of different times and different ways to be a danger. ]

You're going back to 1940, aren't you. [ Less of a question, more of a statement. ] Unless you've decided to go somewhere else?

[ And then, tacked on, he almost forgot -- ]

With Felix, that is.

[ She responds initially by nodding, but it's not exactly a simple yes or no question, so she ends up scribbling down a more elaborate answer in her same weirdly neat cursive -- ]

We'll go back. We both have work we need to return to.

[ Claire kills people for the mafia! Oh, if only that was the sort of thing she was apt to reveal.

Gesturing to Will, presumably to reciprocate the question. Chane imagines he will be heading back to the home and time he came from as well, knowing comparatively little about what he and Hannibal had emerged from. (The doctor will tell her, in his queerly poetic way, later.) ]

[ He was ready to accept the nod as is, to continue from there, but then Chane explains more after that and all Will can do is respond with a soft ah.

That makes sense. ]

Promises to keep.

[ And then she asks about his destination in turn and there is a bit of hesitation there as Will considers. He knows the wish Hannibal and him share -- the wish for anonymity, for sun and sand and little strife. For Cuba, and it's lack of extradition treaties. ]

I think... we're just going to go somewhere quiet. Both of us have lead, ah, interesting lives. Somewhere we could just be now would be nice -- no pain anymore, just a sweet and easy peace.

[ Yes, promises to keep. Chane is a killer and a criminal but she's managed to eke out a life for herself in spite of it, or perhaps even because of it. A life that she could have said yes or no to at any moment, filled with people she's chosen to keep around. Leaving that... It's not a comfortable thought, nor is it one she wishes to pursue.

At the same time, there are other goodbyes (theoretical, at the moment) that she's not especially excited about, either.

Seeking an answer to a more specific question, she writes a single word. ]

Year?

[ He can feel it, the same hesitance he has. For a moment, Will appreciates the irony -- neither of them had came in her seeking a bond and yet here it is, lying between them with a need to be addressed. It makes him smile.

Instead, he sees her question and nods. ]

2020. An eighty year difference between us. I doubt we'd exist at the same time even if our universes intersected.

[ A small smile. It amuses him, almost. ]

[ 2020, he says, and it feels so alien to her. An impossible year, one that she'll later come to intrinsically define by the crisp, exacting technology on the train -- but we're not there yet, so it's an irrelevant comparison at present.

2020, he says, and it's a time made for others. Her children's children, perhaps, if she and Claire decide to create. And Will, who might walk the same ground as them, pass a son or daughter in a crowd and never realise. He won't, but he could.

An eighty year difference, he's so sure about. She'll be elsewhere by then.

( -- a different train, perhaps.)

She hadn't needed this place to tell her that the boundaries of life and death were malleable, edged with otherworldly possibilities and governed by vast hands. She had known that since she was a child, from the day her father told her about the immortality elixir and then expressly forbid her from ever drinking it herself. It was Huey's design that she should live and die in a sheer minute of his life, and he would finally finalize the theory of her existence. Chane had only obeyed, of course. And she hopes she was a good experiment, validating his hypotheses and maybe gaining him some acclaim.

That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. She's helpless to do anything but obey her father. To do otherwise is as physically impossible as touching her nose to her tongue, or flying, or breathing in a vacuum. That doesn't mean she's any less curious, begrudging a command with one hand while accepting it with the other. Her curiosity has always been accompanied by prickles and open cuts.

Plainly, selfishly, she doesn't want it to be the way Will says it is.

Chane struggles to keep a firm lid on that instinctual bout of unhappiness, knowing it affects him. Interestingly, there's an accompanying feeling of failure - almost as if she knows a way to circumvent his unwelcome prophecy, but won't. ]

Edited 2017-02-28 00:15 (UTC)

[ It's true -- it is interesting because there's a pause in Will's thoughts as he feels Chane's on the edges, feels the slow slide of her emotions as they shift from the usual chill of her mind into something more bleaker, more unhappy. His lips tug in a frown as he looks over to her, watching the side of her face for a moment as he considers.

There is surprise in him then, his own complete surprise, because he never quite expected that sort of response from a gap like this. With others he'd grown fond of -- Percy, for instance -- there was the solid assurance of their relationship existing in an ephemeral state. It's the same with Chane but still, her sadness strikes a chord in him.

(And the failure too. He couldn't possibly guess what that's from.)

He ends up stopping in their walk, not quite sure what he wants to do next but still finds himself reaching out to catch her wrist. From there, it's an easy tug to pull her in close, wrap his arm around her shoulder and hold her in a warm hug. She can probably feel Winston's tail brushing against her legs in turn as he sniffs her slightly before settling at their side again. ]

There is something comforting about the weight of a good memory. You may forget the details but the feeling it gives you isn't something that can be taken from you. Not really. It's always there, underneath everything. It makes all of this a little better, doesn't it?

[ His arm comes around her and frames her so solidly, she's initially caught off guard. It's not often that Chane feels as small as she is, with silence and surety to prop her up like a wall. Embraces are the one consistent exception: when someone folds themselves around her, her response is to shrink into them. Perhaps not an immediate response, no -- but it happens regardless of whether or not it's urgent or delayed. As Will holds her, she finds herself slowly sagging, letting him bear some of her weight. Some, not all.

As he holds her, his voice is close enough to leave faint vibrations across her scalp. It's an odd sensation, one she isn't sure she likes yet. His words leave her equally unsure, neither convinced nor unconvinced, but listening intently because... well, that's all she can do.

It must be so easy for him to be friends with her, when he can say whatever he wants and she lacks the ability to disagree, to contest.

Despite all of this, unkind thoughts and indecisiveness, there's a clear indication of acceptance. With no other reason other than she wants to, Chane lingers in the moment, burying her face against his chest. ]

[ week five ➝ chane ]

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jesus apparently i am finally here IT'S BEEN A LONG WEEK

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why did you ask me to figure out this show's timeline, et tu jes

to make you hurt the way you are hurting me!!

well that's just unfair tbh

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